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Thursday, October 13, 2005

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) jason
2) jiansheng
3) pang

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) ahpang
2) zhu tuo
3) someone

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) my tu zhi
2) My mouth
3) My back

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) My butt
2) My hand
3) My leg

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) KANG PEIYI *the most scary person on EARTH*
2) TRAINING when im not in condition during DB
3) MY RESULT

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) handphone
2) LAPTOP
3) HEALTHY

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) nass PE t-shirt
2) nass PE shorts
3) underwear la.. lol

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) have the love back
2) care with concern
3) JUST the girl ba..

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) EYES *that how love at sight come about you know.. lol*
2) BODY *don too fat la...*
3) mouth

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) Dragonboat
2) Running
3) SLEEP

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) IPOD NANO
2) MONEY
3) sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1) Full time NSmen
2) PE teacher
3) A rich ass...

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Vantican*dunno spell correct or not leh..*
2) Underwater
3) MY DREAMLAND

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) just have time with my love one...
2) look at the sun rise
3) look at sun set

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1) Physically Active
2) GO to boys toilet
3) i don wear girls stuff

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1) NOThing

THHREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1) no one...

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wahahhaa.. kang ar kang... whahahhaa... u very bo liao so i also bo liao le.. whahahahah.... alright... this blog shall be inactive ba... so go to http://no-saj.blogspot.com my photoblog... lol...

xOOx - 2:37:00 pm

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

where are you?
acting that nothing happened...
tears run round my eyes...
my love...
you trying to hide something from me..
why dont you just share it...
so that we can solve them together...
i don believe that you dunno...
but you know but you dont wish to face it...
ger...
my heart ache....

xOOx - 3:50:00 pm

she turn up to be sad on her blog...
but i dunno how to cheer her up....
she say she gtg but she seem to be still online...
haix....

you up there... i shouting your name....
I want you to be happy...
that really wad i wan to ask from you..

you are still yourself.. just face it....

pointless.... say so much...
she also cannot see...

LIN HUI TING.... LISTEN!!!! I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW I WILL BE THERE... FOR IT AS A FRIEND OR ANYTHING ESLE...
SHOULDER FOR YOU... EARS FOR YOU.... MOUTH FOR YOU...
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH HAO BU HAO... MAYBE I'M THE ONE WHO CAUSE THIS BA....
cheer up

xOOx - 12:10:00 am

Monday, October 03, 2005

She said...
the reason is...
she dont want to have bf now.
haix... but i still think theres other reason she don wan to say only..

she still wan to hide her blog from...
so i shall do the same ba...
hiding from each other..
but being the cheater between both of us..

waiting shall be my choice ba...
standing by her when she need me...
im already way to deep for her liao...

not giving me a chance is not ur fault...
is just your reason...

i just hope for the day to come ba...

miss ta...

"i will use every remaining time to wait for you. promise me that you will allow me to wait for you in your remaining time."

"when you are ready to give up, everything will be ready for you already."

xOOx - 12:46:00 am

xOOx - 12:38:00 am

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Time Check 1:00am...

Just cant get myself to sleep even though i'm physically tired. Sure that i know i'm acting out when toking to her now. Try to act like nothing happened but deep inside me i love to tell her that "i love you" i don't wish her to know that. When i saw her today, trying to act again. Im just a good actor ba. Sometime the "six sense" of mine, i did felt about her just before we saw her at suntec. When i saw her, i tot i saw the wrong person but my eyes is telling the truth. And thats her. Happiness struck me for a moment but i know you never ever will accept me. Its just like peiyi, the same ever things happened to me again.

chatting with her online wasn't different like last time but more coldness. offically this blog will be secret to me only. is just a private blog for me to post my feeling ba. since she wan to hide hers from me so i will do so for mine. sorry huiting... i don mean to be like tt... just that i cant accept fact so easily. i don't why cant you accept but is your choice i will respect it. i dont mean to spy your blog but i wanted to know.

reality hurts...

xOOx - 1:23:00 am

Saturday, October 01, 2005

K：又见了"我的宠爱" 谁愿接受这种意外
你赞我天生可爱不愿看着我离开

同伴也话我傻喜欢受挫宁愿情敌在伤我

人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
怎奈你最够刺激我凡事也治到倒我
几多黑心的教唆我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火就击倒我么

谁恋爱就多障碍死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱我没法活得来
情人的存在是我从来都志在难在我拱手让爱

S：我怕可一不可再难道你被爱都有害
我确信天真不会错威力会移山填海

B：同伴也话我傻喜欢受挫宁愿情敌再伤我

# 人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
怎奈你最够刺激我凡事也治到我
几多黑心的教唆我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火就击倒我么

谁恋爱就多障碍死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱我没法活得来
情人的存在是我从来都志在难在我拱手让爱

xOOx - 11:06:00 pm

Friday, September 30, 2005

saddness

I'm feeling better now.
I think i asked for it that caused me to be like that.
Self-reflection....

was sitting outside hmv alone staring on the tv...
STARE... waiting for time to past....
i think i was at fault ba...
always thinking that you gave me chance when you are not...

with my character... a nv give up atittude...
and in relationship is also same...
maybe this cause all this problem...

i think you are right... and i will respect the decision...
good fren.. and it will stay as is it....

i think i choose to sms the right person...
peiyi.. thanks...
maybe toking with you just make me cool down and think properly...
as usual.. it just crapping with u but it help...

meeting you just now just cheer me up abit...
even though you keep shooting me today...
but is alright...

you seem to be the one i want to turn to... but this time i cant turn to you but to others...

-i just hate myself forever... cont to hate me...-

xOOx - 11:27:00 pm

DOWN

Feeling so down now...
Shall get away from home to cool myself down...
DON'T CALL ME IF YOU GOT NOTHING TO TELL ME OR ASK ME!!!!

i need time to be alone today.... Do Not Disturb....

xOOx - 1:14:00 pm

REJECTION

Its 5:33am now...
woke up and saw a sms that woke up me up from my tireness.....
and i cant sleep anymore...

saddness filled my body once again...
BUT for wad?
becos i chose to this route...
it all my fault anyway....
tears running round the eyes making me unable to see well....

sadness just flow through my body like no body business....
moral was high for the past 2 weeks but down again...
maybe i shld have trust my feeling that something bad is gotta happened...
cos you turning cold arm from me...
the way u reply i can see....

i gave in too much ba....
once again i chose this route and drop into a deep hole...
and i need to climb back up all alone from it...
pain in the heart which i cant explain....
maybe it is not a like anymore....

I don't like those words you tell me on the sms...
cant you treat that it is nothing and let it be....
at least i wun be so down now...
tell me why?
why cant this work anymore?

im hidden away from her. . .

TRY

-the ANGEL will always be you and its a fact already....-

回头看来时的路
总有些复杂感触
我们走的那么辛苦
好不容易才到这地步
不被了解的痛楚
到不了爱的净土
是你让我越过冲突
陪我走过
风雨险阻这一段路
如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不后悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会
活着的感触
不被了解的痛楚
到不了爱的净土
是你让我越过冲突
陪我走过
风雨险阻这一段路
如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不后悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会
活着的感触
有时我不愿回头看
一路太多眼泪混乱
幸好有你我才变得勇敢
如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不后悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会
我从不后悔选择这条路
因为你的爱让我看见
活着的幸福