listening : Guo Mei Mei, Lao Shu Ai Da Mi
doing : studying, chatting, musicing
missing : none
mood : better that yesterday


老鼠爱大米

我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我不断想不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人
永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边对你说(对你说)
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你
我听见你的声音
有种特别的感觉
让我不断想不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人
永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边对你说(对你说)
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你
我爱你爱着你
就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你
不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意
这样爱你

This song is damn nice. You should try listening to it and look at the lyrics. Below i put the link to the song. Happy listen. . .

Guo Mei Mei - Lao Shu Ai Da Mi

Everyone have a choice to choose what they want to do in future. So i have my make my choice to live what is it now. Because i finally understand what it mean to be lonely now, so that i will be able to see more things out there.

i going crazy and i'm abit high now. *lol* Shall go back and study, talk too much already. Anyway, i will not think too much and let it be because i like the way it is now. Life will be different from the past and i shall stay with it as long as possible.

Study hard and Play hard...

"you never stop loving someone, you just learn to live without them. . " Very true about this sentence and i think i learned it. I finally i understand why i felt lost the past few days.

Gate Closed. . .

xOOx - 9:25:00 pm

listening : Ou De Yang - Xiao Fu Qi
doing : studying, musicing
missing : none
mood : moody

小夫妻 - 欧得洋/蔡淳佳
词: Benny C. 曲:方文良 编曲: 许恒瑞 guest vocal:蔡淳佳

(女)在 super market逛了好大一圈
想你爱咖哩或是义大利面
幸福的食谱再恶补几遍
我的优点要你百尝不厌

(男)在下班路上租了几支影片
有你在沙发就是浪漫剧院
辛苦的时候想着你的脸
没有蛮牛活力也会出现

(合)喔~小夫妻 我的福气 这辈子可以让我爱上了你
这一路 (男)有时晴(女) 有时雨(合) 都没有关系
我们的真心超过钻石对爱的定义

小夫妻 永不放弃 默契是最富有的一种储蓄
赌气话(男) 你一句(女) 我一句(合) 也觉得甜蜜
多庆幸我们望着 同样明天 牵手在努力

(男)你今天玉米浓汤有一点咸
(女)你没送钻戒以后补我项链
(男)我的通通是你的没有期限
(女)存够钱我们逛地球一圈

我愿意(男) 这一生(女) 这一世(合) 呵护着你
一直到(女)你当爷爷(男) 你当奶奶(合) 还是老夫老妻

This is a cute song. Which i'm playing on my blog now. Those who want this song can get from me through msn or any other form. =p

xOOx - 12:29:00 am



listening : fixing a broken heart, Indecent Obsession
doing : chatting, rotting
missing : me, myself and i
mood : moody

Indecent Obsession - Fixing A Broken Heart Lyrics

There was nothing say the day you left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain
Pre-Chorus:
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there
Chorus:
You really where start (you really know where to start)
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools
Can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart?
Fixing a broken heart
I never could understand
What you're going to through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Coz' all the heart just disappears
Every moment you are near
Pre-Chorus:
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear
Repeat Chorus
Bridge:
Soon the rain will stop falling, baby
So let's forget the past
Coz here we are at last
Repeat Chorus

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listening to this song now, i think that what i need. someone to fix my heart. my heart has too much holes to be fixed. 10 mins that all i have now. . . And thats it, i choose to let go and i shall keep to the word, no more her as someone i love, but just a best friend i have. . . no more those waiting time outside her workplace no more those small gift out of nowhere, but just a wad a best fren shld have... be there for her when she need me... celebrate her bday... buy gift during christmas that all...

everything is over.... a new chapter have started... and a new page is written now... =) peiyi, will you be my best friend forever?

xOOx - 11:49:00 pm

listening : incomplete, bsb
doing : slacking, musicing
missing : none
mood : tired cum moody

I just came back from school. As usual, have the 8am class. Have ACMB lecture, didn't understand a shit of what is he talking about. Then went to library and brought hotdog for snack before the next lecture.

After lecture, went to C1 with aaron and hs for lunch then went to pract. Whoo, a fast one cause it is just a briefing for the next few pract. Went to bball court and play bball with huajie, ys and jerry. Quite fun, since i so long never play. Play all the way to 4+pm then i head home, now slacking and later maybe go sleep for awhile.

I'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't i contiune to have that patient for you? Where did that passion and feeling gone? I know deep down in my heart i still love you, but i just want to let you go. Loving someone need not to be together, i just heard that phrase again recently. Is the time right for me to let you go this time round? I don't wish the same thing happened again and i wan to totally give up and treat you a totally friend this time. Will i able to do this?

I need time. . . I have been hearing this and now is my turn to say this. I really need time this time for me to accept to a whole new world again. A new chapter, a new page with new challenge up ahead.

Peiyi you have enter my heart in and out a lot of time but this time... this time i just want to use my whole heart to miss you for the last time. . . just the last time for tonight. . . tomorrow will be a whole new world for me. . .

Will i able to do this? Will you be there for me?

Are you gong or Are you gong?

xOOx - 5:19:00 pm



I don't know why this few day i have so tired. And i have a headache just now. Went to library to return the books at Plaza then went to have lunch alone.So sad right, have to have lunch alone, *lonely.with.no.care.and.concern* Then went school after that. Waited outside the classroom for the damn lecturer to come and he was late. Was talking with huiting and sc outside the corridor then they went in then talk with peiying, lynn they all then finally my lecturer came and i went in.

opps.. i feel guilty, peiying was there saying she feel sad, then i never console her. i'm so guilty now. hey ger, relax.. don't be down, if u see this, anything just come to me i will be there to listen. don't think to much okay. relax ar...

after class, i went to BBDC to get my BTT date and this time i shall not waste my time again. I shall study for it. After that i went back home and rest.

listening : Wax - Xiang Ai.....
doing : chatting, musicing, rotting
missing : her and her
mood : sleepy cum confuse cum missing

xOOx - 11:17:00 pm




So sweet and nice which i found it online. You need a flashplayer to play it.For those don't have, too bad you miss the chance to look at this. I getting confuse about things now, i just hope that it will not affect me alot.

xOOx - 10:03:00 pm



Have another 8am class today. I suddenly miss the afternoon class i used to have, i am damn shag when i reach school today. Feeling sick and trying to keep awake for the whole day. Went to SIM and meet pam and xiaozhu for lunch. Was cursing to her about what happened yesterday night, then as the motherly like friend of mine. She called him down to settle the thing, we got it solve and everything is back to normal.

After that, head for lecture at blk50. I going to fall asleep already. Next time shall buy some tibits to eat or this 4hrs will be a killing for me. No more late night on mon and tues or i will be damn tired like today. I reach home, i jitao went to sleep and wake up knowing that my parents is back and i still blur blur.

Wednesday!!!! Have been my GLs training day but now is so empty. I miss training. Anyway we still own the 225 push up, so we shall come back one day and repay them. *lol* Anyway i shall run for main comm for lsct society, but still thinking which to join.

I shall manage my time well and bark up on my study first. I wan to see myself improve and not wasting any more time.

I such a fool, stupid and lousy. Why i cant i make you mine? And why are you so gong?

-tired and sick-

xOOx - 11:57:00 pm



I just reach home, what a day i have gone through today. Having 8am class, saw my new class and i think that i can't be as slack as ever. *lol* Have CCTA practical, that lecturer, no words can descride him, but i can conclude that he is a turtle. I finally know why we need 3 hours practical, because we got this turtle who will used up the whole 3 hour talking about geography, history, etc. At the end of 3 hours, we only come out with 2 medium.

After that, we head for SIM for lunch. Having lunch with this bunch of gls will cause chaos everywhere. Then head for Blk50 for INST lecture. Another boring lecturer, i don't know how i going to entertain myself in lecture to prevent me from sleeping.

After lecture, head to printing service to get my notes. *omg* WASTED $28 just to buys all the notes today. After that waited at library for the rest, and headed for town. Have riverside chicken and talk cock then went to Big-O have desert.

Now at home, and someone just make me fucking dulan. I don't wish you say who is it. If you think that i don't care, then so be it. If you think that didn't do my job well, then so be it. But i know for myself i did everything well. My job is over, it for them to contiune this spirit in them and not spoon feeding them. They are not children anymore, they are young adult. For god sake, i myself learn my way through NP without any help but only sign board. I make my friends just like that. I don't stick with GLs nor their new make friends in foc. fuck dulan now...

I just hope that you will be here now. *argh*

I have been opening and closing my handphone just now. Wanted to type a sms to you, but don't know what to type. Just hope that you will be alright. Feeling change through time when you understand others better.

dulan dulan dulan. . .

Where are you? I need you now. . .

xOOx - 11:03:00 pm




their welfare is my duty....

xOOx - 11:16:00 pm


the big gls family... that i love them all.... going to miss them all....

xOOx - 11:09:00 pm

Ho ho ho... back from sentosa... not as fun as i expected... but is a time to understand some other ppl more... it started off meeting at harbourfront mrt... hmmm.. then wait wait wait.. for those usual late comers.. then we head for sentosa... did the usual.. games and slack around.. then me xiao zhu and nai ma... swim to platform and chill there... floating on top of it.. toking about adventure camp thingy, chit chat all the way when the sea monster came out.. lol...

then after that... went to wash up then went for dinner... came back in.. and rot at the beach line.. tok about ghost story... some story i listen until sian liao.. but still got the feeling there.. whahaha.. then went to tok with huiting... tok about alot of thingy... then join hw sc yf to tower to chill.. then i lay down and fall asleep like 2mins... then huiting wake me up say going back to main land... diao.. ok then go back loh... then we gossip with emily... lol...

chat chat all the way to sun raise then we all head back for breakfast be4 going home... back home.. haix.... nvm... just lay on the bed and sleep is the best... shall forget it than..

am i? or am i not? dunno... shall don care first... lalallalalala

xOOx - 10:01:00 pm



I just feel that there is a change in me... toward the things i see now... i have a different point of view towards them.. i just dunno is this a short term one or a long term one... loving someone need not both to be together... that what i think now... for now... i just wan to see peiyi to be happy... i don ask more... i no need u to accept me anymore... we are still bunch of crazy ppl ba.. lol...

ok.. be4 foc... i am there thinking shld i take up main comm for lsct society.. can't make up my mind.. but now... i have make up my mind.. i will go for it... my passion for this society is very strong now... i just wan to help them up...

friend in gls have make me a diff person... i found a few of close one... and a bunch of fun loving one... i just hope that this will last forever...

i will be the reason to make u simile.....

xOOx - 1:51:00 pm

chatting with some of my frens now... all my best bud... and seeing them so emo... i am also emo.. even though i'm already one... this is the first time.... a bond a spirit of a family that make me so emo... i have been strong in holding this kind of emotion but this time round i just can't hold back... crys have been running round my eye.... pushing it back before it drop... no one will ever know this knid of feeling... but only... the one in our family who exprience it, will know wad it feel like...

i dunno i can hold back the tears during this outing... my family... i can say that... i just love them...


to suraj: i will be always be ur cool guy... maybe i look stern la.. but i just have this stupid face.... whahaha.. ok... suraj... your laugher just brighten my day... you jus make me happy... hope that u stay happy and cheerful all the way....


to mofo: i will forgive u... ya... you have been helping me alot... helping to tok to the grp when i and joanna were down... just thanks you alot...


to bernard: thanks... you are just you... just diff from other... have been fun knowing u... cheer*


to pam: our nai ma... motherly look... wahhaha... i got so stern meh... next project... working together again... jia you...

to alvin: have been fun knowing u better after tonawanda... it seem that time fly so fast la... fren 4eva...

i love all you... you make wad i am now... you all make this family out... you all are as impt... just remember we will stay for each other as a whole... love all you... you all make me proud and i feel so happy that i have you all as a family...

LSCT GLs Family 2004/05 will be my best memory together....



xOOx - 2:38:00 am

I thanks those who organise and came for the class outing.. at least they care... the other... next time... nv call me to come for it.. cause none of u all care... i heard lame reason that u got things on... this kind i also can give... F it... i will organise one that i only invite those who bother to turn up than those becos one nv come then other don come.. i don care who see it... if u think i'm wrong.. so be it...

anyway this is the last outing with u batch.. next sem.. no more 1f01... i can say this class only got that a few on one.. the other.. i dunno la... don be sorry now, cos your brain cell move too slow... saw those lame ... class bond.. shit la!!! don ever organise shit outing when u don wan to go...

anyway, thanks hansheng and tengsiong... who brought the food and get the food ready... and aaron timon and yichao for coming... as least they care... not like the others... freak it... for those working one... i forgive them... but not those last min ppl.... freak.. if u know u got things on.. then don make empty promises... wasting other people time...

xOOx - 12:28:00 am



This few day have been my peak of my life... i never been so happy and emotional... The batch of frens or shld i say family... have make me think that i'm not alone at all... we gone tru training together.. the hardship we gone tru... and lastly the tears that we drop is for everyone of us... reading the forum.. dedicating it to everyone of us.. i have been trying to stop the tears from dropping..

i finally found out that i give up something really come in back in good deed... i miss foc.. i miss training.. i miss the fun we have... i just feel lost now... everyone of us broke down during foc... but we still determine to cont... supporting each other...

i wan to become a GL again... i don wan be a SGL... i love to cont the training we have... love to cheer like siao together... love to have camp together... i just love to go back time... on our very 1st gl training.. sobbed... i love you peeps... stay happy...

i will cont to help up the society... i will nv give up on the society again... LSCT all the way...

xOOx - 2:24:00 pm



wow... i love mojo... they all the best of all.... this foc has been the best among all the camp i when to.. this is the first time i cry because my group have make me proud for... as a leader... nv listen wadever bad things other ppl tell u... and trust your own grp... ya.. my trust have make them the best foc grp this time..

i really dunno wad to say.... but i really wan to thanks all my senior for their hard work... as usual... i have make up my mind.. i shall help up in next main com....

xOOx - 2:38:00 pm



Will be away for 5days starting from today.... Going for LSCT FOC 2005... woooooooooo.... Do miss me k? whahahha... Just re-packed my bag so big and i haven put my shoe into the bag yet.. o m g... Have been looking forward toward this for quite long time.. wad all the gls have work for.. will be up for this 3days....

just thinking back the past when we were having the training... i can just feel the fun and happiness all of us have together... the training we gone through together... making impact... even thought some of them part us through the time... but they still make part of the jigsaw in this family... conflict may arise between us... groups may appear between us... but we will be going to make this upcoming foc a better one.. and memorable one... not just for lsct.. but for all the people that make this happened...

GLs oei. . .

-only memories will be with you. . .-

xOOx - 10:20:00 am



Why must i come into a world to suffer? Why must i have such character? Why can't all of us live happily? Why is can't there be a trust in everyone? Why can't they just live the way it should be? Why is there difference in everyone? Why can't they be the same? Why can't life be happy?

i hate myself being like that now. . . I can choose not to be in this way... being attitude.. but i just felt that i just can't talk to them already... wad you say is right... but i can never forgive them... they make a deep cut in me... which the way i'm now, just come out from the past...

i want to choose my future and not being set by "someone" already... I want everyone to be happy, i don't want anyone to suffer... haix.... if only i have the power to do so...

shall tok about recent happenning.. have been going to sch like nobody business... have flag painting... still alright... then performace practise... still alright.. xiao zhu my partner... then the adventure camp organise com meeting... i'm the sea expedition OIC... i think my next sem will be busy with it liao...

shall look forward and not thinking of wad i heard... i wan my life be happy... but i'm still as down as ever... i know i cant have the best of everything... but i just want it to be happy ... can i?

xOOx - 10:08:00 pm



Went school for flag painting today. i so tired... i'm so down.. i'm so freaking going crazy... and i'm hating you more and more... believe me or not.. i hating you... don ask me why? cos i mean it...

ok.. draw our foc flag today.... finally got it done and did the foc big flag with the other gls... opps... sorry huiting.... i didn't know you bad mood... opps... sorry... then so many thing happened... then lynn cry... all whose fault.... dunno... cool down ppl... everything is alright... cool down... we shld be happy than being stress.. oh dear....

haiz... but for me.. trying to cool ppl down.. i cant cool myself down... just putting up a fake mood in front of the other.. who will ever know.... no one... no one will ever understand... am i stupid or am i stupid... just hate me of wad i am.. i will forgive you...

xOOx - 10:47:00 pm



Today is mama day. Wish every mother, mother-to-be, mother-in-law, grandmother, etc... Happy mother's day... Today, still feeling the same.... never mind... anyway i have been rotting all the way...

went for my drum lesson as usual... then head to bugis to meet my parents and brother... did some window shopping around.. then my bro's gf wanted us to take neoprint... i was there ~OMG... then nvm loh... anything... then i saw rachel.. lol... hahhaa... but i never go say hi.. cos i going off le...

then we walk to allson hotel to have dinner.... then this go my day... going to be another pack week coming up... and my mood is going way down.... haiz... life is so unfair.... it so unfair....

each of us already have our future written out ever since we were born... some are going to have a good life all the way... some will have a bad one... some will a normal one... which one will i be in? no one will know... but when you tends to found out about it... is it good or bad?

i toking crap... cos im too down already...

xOOx - 9:38:00 pm





xOOx - 11:05:00 pm

I finally back from Shanghai and JiangNan trip... quite interesting but miss SG more...whahahha... this group of 28 ppl... i and one ger is the youngest among all... then the others are working adult.. the whole trip is alright la... went to alot of historial building... eat sleep eat walk then sleep then eat... that is wad i have been doing on the whole trip.. i think i'm growing fatter after this trip...

nothing to conclude from this trip... only one thing that have been going tru my mind... the words... believe... or not to... alright... shld stop here... dunno wad to say...

xOOx - 10:31:00 am


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