Friday, May 27, 2005
im giving up...
listening : incomplete, bsb
doing : slacking, musicing
missing : none
mood : tired cum moody
I just came back from school. As usual, have the 8am class. Have ACMB lecture, didn't understand a shit of what is he talking about. Then went to library and brought hotdog for snack before the next lecture.
After lecture, went to C1 with aaron and hs for lunch then went to pract. Whoo, a fast one cause it is just a briefing for the next few pract. Went to bball court and play bball with huajie, ys and jerry. Quite fun, since i so long never play. Play all the way to 4+pm then i head home, now slacking and later maybe go sleep for awhile.
I'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't i contiune to have that patient for you? Where did that passion and feeling gone? I know deep down in my heart i still love you, but i just want to let you go. Loving someone need not to be together, i just heard that phrase again recently. Is the time right for me to let you go this time round? I don't wish the same thing happened again and i wan to totally give up and treat you a totally friend this time. Will i able to do this?
I need time. . . I have been hearing this and now is my turn to say this. I really need time this time for me to accept to a whole new world again. A new chapter, a new page with new challenge up ahead.
Peiyi you have enter my heart in and out a lot of time but this time... this time i just want to use my whole heart to miss you for the last time. . . just the last time for tonight. . . tomorrow will be a whole new world for me. . .
Will i able to do this? Will you be there for me?
Are you gong or Are you gong?
xOOx - 5:19:00 pm
