the 2 family... mother graduated from art centre...


the FAMILY


my brother and me

xOOx - 8:53:00 pm

I'm turning into a panda soon... i'm deprive from sleep... Woke up early to have some photo taking with my brother and his gf's family in that graduation clothes around sg.. lol.... went to ntu first... did SOME photo taking... his gf's mother and father is so steady one la.. everywhere also wan to take photo....

then we head to cityhall.. cont to have some photo taking... and th e sun is burning my body... lol.... and both of them are complainting that they are hot... whahaha.. we went to this veg restuarant near indoor stadium there for lunch... highly recommended.. lol... its nice...

after that head to ps... to rot cos i have drum lesson at 4.... after drum walk to mache for dinner... whahaha.... have lots of food.. and i need to burn those off tml... i'm feeling super tired now.. and my head is feeling so heavy...

shall sleep early today... panda's eye are becoming bigger...

-for a reason for you. . .-

xOOx - 8:34:00 pm




Alright, today did quite a few thing.... Met pam and zhu at sp @1:30pm... went to sp canteen for lunch... or i accompany them for their lunch cos i have mine at home... then head to to audi for the khoo siew chiow's talk... been to the 2 talk by him and learn quite a few thing from him... hahaa... after that me pam and zhuu head to cityhall... i went to meet peiyi... and the other 2 went to meet fiona... lol...

walk around suntec with her then went to starbuck.. and we started toking... she started toking about her secret adrimer.... the wad ping one.. lol... then i keep asking her why don go say "HI!" to him on msn.. blah blah blah.... we keep talking about this for 1hr+ lol... so long nv really like that tok with her le... lol... (COS OF ME. MR BUSY MAN) whahaha...

anyway... you are right... guys shld initiate la.. but ur that special abit.. dunno wad to say.. lol... is your future... i will always support u loh as a fren... =)

then went to see firework at durain head(esplanade) there.. i tot i was able to see you but i cant... nvm... peiyi... next time take out ur mp3 player and start listening to music and watch the firework.. she complaint is so noisy la... lol... the firework is nice... love firework since young... but sg one isnt that nice than those oversea one... lol...

alright... went to took the train.. and is pack with so many ppl... omg... but we still are able to get into the train... lol...

-i need to face failure before i'm able to sucess-

time check 12:25am;

was chatting with a few ppl just now... hmmmm... was toking to peiyi just now... wanted to disturb her again about that guy and ger but she wasn't in a good mood dunno wad happened.. so nv tok to her... then come peiying... then i think also no mood... then i feel that i shld not chat with anyone else then... it seem all like no mood to chat... but i still wish to chat with u.. lalala...

okay.... just thinking about during the last holi and now.... i think quite alot of things happened.. at that time... the feeling for peiyi and now... is totally 2 diff thing... i treat her now like my closest fren... everyone need to face the reality soon or later... but is quite fun going out with her frequently... hahaha... hearing all the story she say.. just brighten my day and shooting her is so fun... lol... shld have more this section so that i can shoot you more... the next one shld be coming soon.. lol...

life isnt that good after that... i went to my down hill.... is just like rollercoaster... family problem study... personal problem... and only that few frens that will come to you when u need them...

starting to crap liao...

After the talk today... Mr Khoo asked this question "What you want to do in the future?" i really dunno wad i want... i got too much of committment... i love to help the enironment, the community.. i love sport... i want to do alot of things... but in the end... one still need to choose... need to choose something practical in sg... everything need money... no $ no talk... "Will you able to risk for what you wan?"

biotech isn't wad i wan to do next time... i regret coming into this course but i didn't regret knowing those fren here.... this isn't the first time i say that... since i cant excel in study i want to excel in other thing... im not a sport talent im not a musical talent... so i want to do something that i will repay to the community and the enironment..

hahaha.... alright... shall sleep liao... is late... tml will be a long day too... whahaha...

-what you want to do next time?-

xOOx - 10:19:00 pm



Depressed by the result of the intru paper... is just like last time SS paper... where how hard i study only some get in and not 100%.... after taking back the paper, my mood drop even more cos im already v tired...

isolated myself at sim when having lunch... then went for pract... i scolded hs "FUCK U!" and walk away just becos of a small thing he say... im just now having a good mood then... so he choose the wrong time to say those thing... went to pract try to get back my mood, after those sms you reply back to me... pract for today was quite short... 2hrs and got everything done... went down to recuritment area to store my bag there.. cos i need to walk all the way to sporthall clubhse to put the STUPID YICHAO things la...

walk back to 83 again... stay in the holding area for awhile... scold the wannabe gl for 4 times becos of their noise level... in the end i hack.. put on my ear piece and there go my music time... sms steph to see if she need help to check on anything ma... and she came to meet me at the holding area... she said she want to eat so we head to sim for her FOOD... on the way.. she explained everything about cssc... lol... finally my side settle abit...

after sim, we head home with hs to the bus stop... having the laziness in mind, but in the end... i still change and went for a 4km jog... lol... the weather is getting hotter and hotter... and toking about that i burned my hand while doing push-up ytd.. lol... this isn't the first time.. last time ncc i kena be4... and was used to it...

alright.... i dunno wad am i thinking now... im too stress to get something out of it... but maybe one day im able to get it out... i miss you....

-nothing that i can do now but contiune my way through. . .-

time check 10:08pm..

here am i blogging again... good job to my beloved Project Head... Stephanie Ho Huimin... lol... (you name is spliot after this few days) whahaha... our proposal is send in again.. hope this time nothing will happened...

just now i was lying on my bed and straight away i fall asleep... lol.... i was too tired already... lol....

alright maybe i shall rest early today... but i still need to comfirm if there is the talk or not.. lol..

time check 1:01am

finally i going to sleep soon... hahaha... gotta meet the gang at 1pm at dover and have lunch lunch at SP.. lol.. after the talk tml.. maybe meeting peiyi.. lol... that auntie kaypo and go watch ndp preview firework.. lol... i just need someone to be at me now... studying have been the headache... haix.. and is always it that bring my mood down more... alright...

shall go sleep... at least i can sleep more tml... lol...

-i said and i mean it-

xOOx - 8:08:00 pm



Super stressful today... Met Steph and started calling and seaching for kayak sponsors... but each just say they can't or saying they will called back... and now it look like the land exp is settle but the sea one isn't... arghhh... headache....

alright... went for training after that... the run was a test on mental... even tot my ankle still give some problem during the run.. but i keep thinking of other thing... other thing... for me.. your image just appear... you told me not to do thing for u... but it just come naturally... i did this 10km for u... ok... did pool rowing today... it was a short one.. not more then 200 stroke... so sian... ah huat was angry... lol

have dinner with jap, yu qing and chao... then head to bus stop and saw wen lin and went home with her... whahaha... finally got someone to accompany me on bus home... lol... alright... shall cont on my nyaa project thingy...

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1:30am now... and finally got the conversation done and got my messenge passed to everyone... and my brain is going haywire... i need some rest now... my head is heavy now... going to explode anytime... i haven read my acmb yet... arghhhh...

i just hope everything go smooth tml.... haix.....

-thinking, missing, concerning. . .-

xOOx - 10:46:00 pm




MrCrappy was sick today... Tears keep flowing out of the eyes and water keep flowing out of the nose.... Have ABC pract and 4hrs lect today... Called NCC(sea), saf yacht but didn't make and improving.. but at least i got throught... lol... zhu took over and contact the higher head... lol...

when to see the gls recuritment... opps the question seem more that last year one.. lol... heard there 7-8 ppl sign up already... do more business alright... at least i wed come back got things to do... lol...

i will be going school tml to help steph for the nyaa project... and go for training in the late afternoon... hope i will feel better tml... i shall go read my abc gylcosis and rest early tonight.... tata...

ps: PEIYI.. you are super KAYPO....

-hoping for hope-

xOOx - 9:59:00 pm

Here is a story of a sick boy who realise that he was always alone when he is sick... went home, no one also realise that he is sick... in sch, just that few who will tell him "go home and rest la" but to the sick boy hoping to hear someone saying "are you alright?" will already make him happy... but he didn't heard it... trying very hard to force himself to stay for a 4hr lecture be4 he give up and say.. "i going home, not going for tut"

on the journey back home.. he think and think... but he just cant come to a conclucion... so he hide.. hide inside a place where no one will ever know... he is sad... he is weak... but who will ever know.. she don't talk the same way to him like last time... where he try to treat nothing happened.. but she making like there is something happened... -sigh-

the boy know the girl during the school day... from unknown to friends to close friend... they just come together from no where... shooting each other like no one business... sharing secret... keeping the promise of not saying out... giving suggestion... helping each other....

when the boy started to have feeling for her.. the ger have someone in heart... so he didn't do anything but supporting her at back.. giving concern... when she down the boy will try to cheer up... but he always fail...

it come one day.. when she come across the boy's journal.. read that the boy got a ger in mind... but the ger don't know who is it... being curious she started asking as she don't know that the ger is her... the boy jokingly said " is you loh" but the ger said "faster say" after a long chat the ger still cannot believe what the boy say...

on another day.. she started to ask again... and this time... the boy started to be serious... and finally the ger got the messenge across... but this time.... the boy got rejected... the boy did feel sad but he still need to cont his path.. treating that nothing happened... both of them still cont to chat online, hp... but not as close like usual...

the boy just hope that he is able to turn back time and hide that confession in his heart so that thing wun happened like now...

this is a story about a boy and a ger....

xOOx - 9:03:00 pm



Raining the whole morning today... Was caught in a 45min traffic jam after 1min on my bus... so sian la... SHU ar SHU... wan to sleep also don sleep on the road ma... cos a jam on the road... quote from py "they stand for too long already, need to rest" whahaha... maybe they are... whahhaha...

wasn't that late for class today... 15mins late ba... dr kueh haven start the lesson.... yeaaa... next week we will have our chance to kill mices... whahahaha... coolllllll... alright....

went to megabit for lunch will class gang.. have intru lecture.. but was watching charlie and choc factory on labby.... whahaha... wasn't listening to his lesson at all la... and the movie also make me more wan to slp also... whahaha... then after that did pbl with aaron denise hs wilson...

went over to nyaa clubhse to help steph to call up moe adventure camp to comfirm thingy... hahaha.... then start the long meeting on the proposal again.. ohhhhh... tian ar... faster get over it... i kind of sick of it liao.. lol...

i got grace to help me design the t-shirt design.. lol... thanks thanks... wad a good junior i have.. lol...

alright.. i miss training today... and i shall do some self trg tml... which more or less shld be running... hahaha...

i have a cold now... haiz... im just not feeling myself now.. lol... going crazy soon...

i got your answer. . .

-shallbeyourguardianangelforever-

xOOx - 10:40:00 pm

Whatever i said is real... Whatever you ask is real... you may be shocked by what you heard.. but all of them all come from my heart.... ya.. good fren usually don.. but this time it does.... this feeling isn't just recent but it have been a period of time already... but just that i kept them in the most deepest part of my heart....

if you didn't ask.... i will just keep it in my heart... and just let it be as last time... you didn't react to anything that i said but just replying "huh" "haha" ,etc... i really dunno how you feel? im may not be the type you wish for... but i just hope for that 0.1% of chance this time on you...

i want to be that rope to put you up when you are down.... i maybe dreaming......

-will you know what i wanted to tell you?-

xOOx - 12:55:00 am



Today the start of of the other half of sem... Have ABC lecture today with the an uneasy part of abc... There is so much to remember for abc this half... i think i need more memory cell... When to library to do nyaa stuff and abc pbl... head back home after that...

haha... miss my stop cos i overslept... so need to go back interchange to change bus home again... wash up and i started watching son of the mask.... oppps... alvey is soooooo cuteeee.... went for an afternoon nap after that... and woke up for a 4km run.... personal training since im going to miss training tml cos of meeting...

training up just for one main reason.... and i did it for..... *for u to know and for me to find out*

the rope and i will be one...

time really fly... at a blink of ur eye... so many event had just past by and gone....

-outofnowhere-



xOOx - 8:16:00 pm



MrCrappy today was sick and injury... woke up with sore throat and back aching this morning.. did nothing much today... just rot all the way till my drum lesson start... and have dinner with my family....

and just have mass chat with comm about the proposal... $17000+ lol.... just for my sea ex side... i think total for both side i think will be up to 30k... tml need to go library and lend map to measure distance again... whahaha...

-i'm just a rope hoping to pull you up whenever you are down...-

xOOx - 11:42:00 pm

Now is 1am and i just reach home and wash up... Have training in the afternoon.. ran for about 5km... whooo... with the pacing of the senior... i'm push to my limit another time.. whahaha... during running... only one thing keep appearing in my head.. hahaha... and is for no one to know...

did 1000m rowing for 4-6 times... up and down... and that shiok... have lunch at 4:30 with jap and yu qing at market after training and i head to fiona's hse for bbq with the gang and the magma freshies... lol...

i did the fire starting cos im just feeling bored... lol.. then start the fire... alvin start bbq his bread.. lol... and steph put in otah... and i put in hotdog... alvin and steph have otah bread and i have hotdog only... whaha... and the freshies are just siao... only like to eat stingray... put all the stingray inside... stingray fest after that... whahah..

and we started to toking "crap and prawn" together.. lol... rot until 11pm and we head home.. and there i am.. reach home at only at 1am.. lol... wahhahaha...

-sometime its best to look back. . .-

ps: a small confession have been make....believe it or not... i telling the truth. . .

xOOx - 1:00:00 am



Alright, here am i again... acmb is crap and amne test was disappointing... im so disappointed of myself... haha.. alright shall not think too much about that... after paper... went to town with hs, aaron, pam, zhu, big head, fiona, raine and zhongwei... walk around taka then someone tot of eating xiao long bao.. all of us head to head to eat them.. whahha... and hs ate EIGHT xiao long bao... whahaha... and i ate a bowl of la mian and 4 xiao long bao... lol..

after that zhu fiona pam went for some dance performance.. and royston go find his freshies and raine zhongwei went home.. left only the 3 lonely guys.. lol... and we sms around to find anyone want to adopt us.. lol... but none did....

so we walk around loh... haha... 3 lonely little guys.. lol... nothing much to tok about after that...

coyote ugly is a nice movie.. lol... even tot quite old... whahaha... and the song in it is also nice.. whoah...

why am i feeling down now... i should not.. why am i.. arghhh... wadever.. lol... shall not care.. lol...


-your picture keep appearing in my head-

ps: but i choose this route i shall cont on... but wad i will see infront will be just another chapter of my life.. so its god who going to lay the path for me... but i shall work hard to earn it one-by-one.. cos you are my energy... lol... whahaha... dreaming.. lalala


xOOx - 11:53:00 pm



Alright last paper tml but it isn't the stop yet... there is only left 6 more weeks after that we will have our semester exam... 6 weeks don seem short to me... and there is like so many things to study already during this half, wad will we expect the other half then.. we will see...

study acmb the whole afternoon.. and i finally understand it... it dont seem hard but mobin make it sound hard.. and this make us think its hard... lac operon trp operon... translation.. transcription... replication... those word have been flooding inside my brain for the whole day...

we have a answer and question session at the clubhse with alvin and pam... there we finally got some ideas and finally understand some term by helping each other... whahaha....

did campus run again today... some of you may think im crazy.. but i just feel is alright... hahaha... im crazy... whoah... sometime next week.. i want to try 2 rounds of the campus... i did gym be4 having my dinner... i just feel good... :p tml will be my rest day.. cos sat have sea training... whooo... but i still thinking to go sakae with them or not... or i shld go for campus run and head back home and rest...*like no life* whahaha...

aiya... shall see tml... whahaha... shall stop here...

[crapping session end @ 10:25pm]

-what can i do to help you?-

xOOx - 10:09:00 pm



Whoah. Train, Training, Trained... lol... 3 days of training make me feel good... but its not enough, there is still excess of fatty acid around my body and i going to burn them off... 65 that wad im aimming... and im doing for you... lol... have the abc paper.. is alright.. ya... finally i say the paper is alright... and i have confidence to pass.. hahaha... 3 down and 1 to go... which is... ACMB... whoah... it suck man.. i still don understand... at least just now pam explain the operon thingy.. i get in abit le.. lol... shall piang tonight... and ask her more tml... peiying came in to the clubhouse and she show us her old passport.. is omg... the nerdy peiying.. lol... small small with spec.. lol... i did campus run alone after that.. came back and we left home today.. cos pam and alvin didnt wan to study today.. so i also went back too...

forever in love by kenny g is a beautiful piece... smooth my mind down... whoah...

i shall go watch tv now and study later... lol...

[crapping session 0004 end @ 7.07pm]


-she's just so near yet so far... -

shall cont from this post... so slack.. i have no mood to study my acmb.. arghh... shall crap abit and study later on ba... sat i shall be super busy la.. morning db training.. afternoon maybe celebrating ray's bday, then evening going to fiona's hse for bbq(is it bbq or other thing.. i forget liao.. haha).. that go my sat after common test.. hoping to push the bday thingy to fri.. but i think hard la.. lol...

and more following sat will be gone and gotta miss db sea training too.. cos need to get 2 star kayaking.. arghhh... sat gone... my next holiday also gone...

-looking at you just isn't the same like last time anymore... -

xOOx - 6:49:00 pm



Here MrCrappy here to crap about my day. Since it common test week, i did revision on ABC at clubhouse. Its just good day to sleep, cos its raining heavily. Read through the whole ABC lecture notes, did some exam paper. And this end my revision on ABC. Went for a jog at the track.

Went back clubhouse and we have grapes. *$10 GRAPE leh* hahaha. And we make our way home after that. Didn't went home, but i head to coffeeshop for dinner and went to my house gym for weight training. whooo. My muscles are training real hard. And i need to.

And now i sitting in front of my labby and blogging, i shall rest early and wake up early to read tru ABC again.

Shall stop here, going to watch CSI and sleep after that...

[crapping session 003 ending at 10:18pm]

-my presence is for you to find out-

xOOx - 10:04:00 pm



Crapping time... hahaha... i'm back from school... did some revision on ABC today.. need more reading tml.. shall go back clubhse and study again... did some gym session with kang and alvin... whoo... full upper body.. but nv chiong.. haha... tml campus run.. i have saying wan to run but up to now i haven.. haha...

ccta paper.. hmmm.. dunno... no comment on it.. .. haha... next abc then acmb... whoo.. 2 more... and is all over...

today is not a good crapping session for me.. cos im tired.. whahaha... so i shall end here...

[crapping session 0002 end at 9.30pm]

-you are not noticing me. . .-

xOOx - 9:20:00 pm

haha... so damn tired.. now a t nyaa clubhouse studying abc.. email zaman 2 time and she haven reply.. whahaha.. she's slow.. whaha.. so bored and tired.. but i still need to study.. whahaa... 20amino acids.. that hell again.. need to memories all of them again.. is just shit.. whahaha... shall go study.. shall update later again.. lol...

-study mode-

xOOx - 4:20:00 pm

here am i.. and i still haven sleep.. lol.. whahaha... and i watching wwe.. lol.. cant sleep.. and i did a ice-cream test after blog jumping to huiting's blog.. lol.. whahaha... im a strawberry ice cream.. whahaa.. my fave favour... lol.. cool.. shall cont my tv and try to make myself tired and go sleep.. hahhaa...

xOOx - 1:21:00 am

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core. You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

xOOx - 1:19:00 am



Here am i starting to crap at my blog again. Did some reading for tml CCTA, and i think.. hmmmm... i... going.. to.. DIE... lol.. whahaha... dunno how is the format of Dr Kueh paper... whahaha.. nvm.. shall try my best.. GOOD LUCK TO THOSE HAVING THEIR CT TML...

have my drum lesson today... like usual.. play with the notes.. its still best when u play with the drum.. all kind of sound will come out... whooo.. i shall stay in school and study tml after the paper.. *who want to join me? can just give me a call* and i shall do some campus run in the late afternoon too... lol... alone? shld be ba... lol... shall go back to my training mode le...

kind of tired le.. shall jump into my bed and meet dream ger in dream ba... *that why it is call dream ger ba, lol...*

it seem that all is mugging... don't see them online too.. lol... or are they like me.. appearing offline.. but study.. lol.. shall go rest abit then head to bed.. bye..
(crapping session 0001 ended at 11:01pm.. )

-angel maybe the one i looking for. . .-

xOOx - 10:51:00 pm



What a messy bus i took today? *puke* er xin... lol.. went to school to study... at least i finish READING CCTA already.. lol... *all alone* haha.. then left school around 5+ going 6... cos i felt bored so i took bus down to bugis... walk around all alone... and i finally brought my memory stick i wan... then took bus back home.. got down a few stop be4 my stop.. and i WALK home from there.. hahaha....

i was watch "Kingdom of Heaven" yesterday... and i remember my ocomm teacher told us.. wad make a man have the mind to kill in a war? if we ever gone into a war... will one really got the mind to kill... it seem that our defence seem strong.. but this recent years.. it seem that that alot of problem with it... death, injuries.. and stopping of trainings... is like becoming more welfare... haha.. i'm just crapping too much.. lol...

shall crap more... haha... sometime feeling just cant be explained.. it just keep flying around in the air... lol... and my feeling is just the opposite.. is plant in the ground and is not moving at all.. haha... just hoping that one day someone out there will walk pass it and start digging it.. lol.. im just crapping.. hahaha... but somewhere out there.. i will start finding that one... making that one know that im there... shall stop here.. crap too much le...

-friends do count in my life..-



xOOx - 11:18:00 pm



Life have its ups and downs... And i experience it after each another... and is over and i shall not think about it anymore... its their problems, its up to them to solve... My brother told me why i always have AP toward my parents, i never told him that is they who cause my character. Why should i care when they would even listen.

I was viewing the foc video the whole night ytd. I finally feel that i'm lucky cause i have another family. They are my fellow gls, my buddies, my listening ears, my family. Is the video that cause the simle in my face yesterday. And is the msn window of ron and pam when i found that there is always friends out there who care. And thanks peiying for trying hard to cheer me up, chat halfway i went to watch the video.

Anyway, this is life and i shall bare with it. Because i know that my friends will be there for me.

Cheers



xOOx - 4:28:00 pm

to all my friends... i feeling better already... so need not get worry for me anymore... thanks guys...

xOOx - 2:28:00 am





xOOx - 10:03:00 pm

i wish that i can just walk off this shit im expriencing every now and then from this TWO PEOPLE. Why can't they just think what have they done to me? Why can't they just fuck off the problem they always like to bring up? Is it money more important than family? i can simply give up everything just for someone who i love... but i think you all can't...

you all are like KIDs.. ya im not saying anything wrong.. KIDS... i really don't know what up in both of your minds? What is the use of acting out that you all are happy when you are not? i'm pretty sure that 90% of the time im just acting to be happy... i tot that i have one problem down.. but now you TWO is just adding more troubles and problems to me...

I heard listening to the craps you both say.. I shouted because i just want some peace... What is the point of talking properly to both of you when you two would not even take in each word i told you previously... i don't want to listen...

i'm pretty sure where i want to head for... but both of you are just walking in circle... sometime when you all meet again.. both of will just start quarreling again....

They are just who most of us call them FATHER and MOTHER...



xOOx - 5:28:00 pm



do my blog look sad?????

to Huiting:

i'm not feeling sad la.. i alright la.. aiyo... wahhahaha....

xOOx - 11:06:00 pm







xOOx - 9:15:00 pm



wad a unlucky day today... i took the intru paper late becos i mix up the timing... arghhh... lucky my six sense told me something is not right... then i head to lt22 for the paper.. opening the door i saw.. omg.. they all started.. arghhhh.. *cry* whahaha

the intru.. is gone... lol... haix... shall not tok anything about it...

then after that went lunching with pam zhu alvin and fiona.. then went town with zhu and pam... add the expensive mango.. *my pocket got hole liao* then went take 111 to esplanade.. our plan if we overslept we shall loop back to gim moh and take bus back again... but in the end all of us nv sleep.. lol... then went to the library.. and rot... rot until 6pm then pam and zhu went for dance then i rot at library for awhile alone then left.. walk to suntec and do window shopping alone...

then took 700a back to bukit panjang.. i sleep all the way... cool... then waited for 67 for another 15mins.. then finally i reach home.. lol...

".. / - .... .. -. -.- / .. / .-.. .. -.- . / -.-- --- ..- / -... ..- - / .... --- .-- / -.. --- / .. / -.- -. --- .-- / - .... .- - / -.-- --- ..- / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / .- -.-. -.-. . .--. - / -- . "

xOOx - 9:43:00 pm




i am back from lsct graduation day...








where you find that frens are impt than everything... *lol*

























xOOx - 5:52:00 pm



Intru is one of the hardest modules for this sem... until now i still don't understand what to study and the common test is on tuesday.. somebody pls help me... argh... tml will be out to graduation day duty... and i need time to study.. i have been rotting... argh...

i pretty sure that this time i need some help... hahaha... shall not stay here too long.. shall be a good boy and go study now...

-angelsdroppedby-

xOOx - 11:36:00 pm




i super bored and i haven even touch my intru at all... o m g.. i have been rotting all the way.. sleep and looking at the computer screen. dunno for wad... whahahaha... i shall go mug after finish watching True Files... lol...

opps... opps... opps... are you think what am i thinking?

tml i shall mug all the way... hahaha... my tian SHI dropped by and i have flow by... whahahha...

i having a bad headache now... argh... shall go rest early today... and wake up early and start studying.. lol...

xOOx - 10:08:00 pm



Everyone saying that life will have its ups and downs.. but for me it always... DOWNS... lol... but wadever happened i still need to face them... it when i know one thing... i have grow up...

it seem that i have give up totally... we are just in 2 different world... your world and my world... and that wake me up i shall cont my journey... i got the biggest joke this morning.. alright... shall not say anything here...

the bus trip to town was a funny one with poon shooting zhu and pam all the way.. lol... i have been laughing laughing all the way... and they say that aaron is my animal and call me to control him.. lol...

from huiting's blog....

"ah pang..haha..i can be ur angel..the tian shi..tian shang de yi dui shi...bleah lame..i noe.."

lol... we shall be each other tian SHI ba... lol.... :p

-tian shi. . . tian shi. . . where are you. . .-

xOOx - 10:47:00 pm





xOOx - 10:58:00 pm

i have a stupid dream just now... and i like it so much... but wad ppl say... dream will nv come true... lol.... sadded... woke up late and miss my btt.. and i need to go down and book it again.. wadever...

have a meeting at 5.30.. and im rotting all way ba... maybe gym later for awhile be4 heading for school... i shall go back sleep again later.. lol... i just too tired... hahaha....

xOOx - 1:11:00 pm

OH MY GOD. . . I WOKE UP LATE FOR MY BTT... ARGH... AND I MISS IT... SADDED... NEED TO BOOK AGAIN... WASTING MY TIME AGAIN... WHEN THEN CAN I GET OVER THE BTT... F%#K.....


xOOx - 9:45:00 am



Another wed is over... is just like working to me.. 8-4.. is hell for me.. anyway... got over it... nothing special happened.. just that during acmb.. that hui ting took my book and start drawing a msn window on it... *lol* she just too crap la...

went home.. get change into my sport gear and went for a run.... the first 5mins was to warm the body.. and the next 25mins was just alright for me.. whooo... just that i push myself at the ending as my ankle started to pain.. haha... but its a good run...

opps... i really hope tml the btt i will pass... i have been quite bad luck this few day.. hope that it wun affect it.. lol...

result of main comm is out... congrat... work hard.. as wad i post previouly... make some impact this year... if im able to help out i will be there.. cheers...

addition... i finally find myself good use to some ppl... happy to see those words... stay happy =)

-i did all this things for one reason. . . and the reason is. . .-

xOOx - 8:53:00 pm



Wanted to skip intru and went home and have a good sleep.. in the end alvin call and ask if i wan to go down for the beckham thingy at nyp... then alright.. got changed and rush down... shall not talk about the detail... but the talk by Khoo Swee Chiow was a good one... "Endure for 5mins, Enjoy For 5mins, Carry on going. . ." that the spirit every should cultivate from him... never stop learning.. challenge oneself to another higher limit..

and my next higher limit... train hard in db... that it... cheers..

xOOx - 9:36:00 pm



I need to start mugging.. BUT i dont seem to able to start on it... i shld stay somewhere and start mugging... home isn't a good choice at all... i shall make my way to library and study tml onwards... breaking away from my temptation... 2 finish class tml.. i shall go je library and study until 7pm and make my way back home and throw my things and go for a run after that... i think i shall do it this way...

but will i do it... let see tml...

haiz... care and concern just come naturally... but wad about feeling... do they just come like tt? or is it need time to grow them... trying to treat everyone the same but why it always that few that i will treat them more... just toking crap...

ok... wad about today.. have pract.. then went to get the blazars then have lecture... opps... peiying ar peiying... pls take care of urself la... i shall walk slower so that u wun be left behind... lol... then after lunch went to eat lunch at sim... then head home...

went to gym and do so weights for 45mins.. and went home wash up and have a short nap be4 heading for sch for the briefing.. found out that mon will be gone... full day service to school.. arghhhh... intru no time no time... but at least i will be ushering the VVIP, VIP those.. lol... that better...

after briefing.. was asking around if anyone wan to have dinner.. but it seem that all going home.. at least ass, asshole and justin stay and have dinner at market... saw my parent and went home after that.. or i shall need to rot for 2 hours... heng...

haiz... im just missing something.. but look like i don know whats im missing... haiz... haiz... look as though that is what im missing but found out it is not... arghhhhh...

-i make everyone unhappy and i hope you all understand...-

xOOx - 10:39:00 pm



Doing some blog jumping. The top topic... lsct society main comm.. blah blah... if u are in the list... work hard for it.. do it for those who didn't get in... and not saying those words like you think u can't... then this then that... ya.. i disappointed i nv get in.. but is your day... to show that you can do it and not commenting that u cant... you nv try how u know... tell me.. if you have this thinking that u cant.. why initally go sign up... since u sign up... have some fate man...

i didn't see a point of being challenge by the words other ppls say.. is up to yourself to believe in ur heart.. and work harder... those who nv got are unhappy of sdar and not the nominates... why are you all thinking so much...

believe in yourself and work harder....

-pride on the line-

xOOx - 11:20:00 pm

i am so bored... and not in mood to study too... wahahahahahahhaha

xOOx - 2:02:00 pm



thats it... wad ever i done is down the drain... i feel so disappointed... and sadded... trying to get you attention but it seem you nv even care..look as thought im just nothing to you... why im i so affected... arghhhh... this few days have been a down point... feeling out of place... is it i think too much...

I AM JUST DREAMING.... STOP DREAMING...

why am i so affected? i dunno... putting a mask up just not to show my true self... actting as thought i don care... but.. but.. it seem you nv even care at all... why must i be so good... always trying to be that good person but in the end ppl just in the end don even appreaciate... i did too much for one when i forget the others... others call me to cont others call me to give up... who shall i cont? which step shld i step for? or shld i just cont with a route and seach for a new journey toward my life...

xOOx - 2:31:00 pm


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