Tuesday, September 20, 2005
how things can end my day today.... FUCK IT....
ITS JUST MY FAULT EVERYTIME....
MORNING:
didnt sleep well yesterday... woke up with stiff neck...
was guilty to choose not to go db training in the afternoon...
just becos i choose not to neglect my FRIENDS ANYMORE...
which i did it LAST TIME... and i regret doing it.... i lost a bunch of brothers...
the bond with them have just gone becos of all my FAULT... did anyone know how i feel...
AFTERNOON:
ZOO... kept raining in the later part.... got some part my shirt dirty... how much bad luck i was going tru.... adding to tat.. at california fitness... wad fuck 2 weeks trial... WHAT KIND OF FITNESS CONSUTANT will recommend their user to train 7 times a week without a rest day... in the end they just wan money ma... fuck you.... but the other one is better...
NIGHT:
MARINE STEAMBOAT... rain just as we exist the MRT.... nvm.. just walk in the rain loh... giving the rain to cool myself down... alright... eating was alright... until my mother call... WAD THE FUCK... do you need to shout.... not i nv pick up ur fone is i really nv heard it ma... fuck off man... just keeping my cool in front of the gang... haiz.... cont to joke with them.... thinking that it has ended... but something just sadded me... nvm... forget it...
something pam and steph say ytd on msn about me in db.... ALONE... ya im alone... frens is just that few of them.. dan yuqing japh yichao len... the others just have their own circle already... and you say i shld consider quitting.... i did consider not becos of frens in there not becos training.. but i did consider becos of my family... DB take up all of my time... and i still considering of quitting becos i wan to work... at least i can do something to cover my school fees and not seeing my father so tired.... ya i hate them... but in the end they are still my family... haix... you hit my weakest link....
haix... maybe i gave myself too much hopes.... gave myself too much chances...
maybe there no happy ending for me ba...
-hit me with care and concern. . .-
我的错
xOOx - 11:40:00 pm
